Friday, July 27, 2012

Untitled

I can't seem to come up with a title for this blog. I'm feeling so many things right now I don't even know if I could put them into words but I'm gonna try. I remember when I used to play sports the coaches would usually say the same thing after a winning game. They would say "enjoy today's victory but work starts again tomorrow." I just finished my eighth round of chemo. This means my life can begin to get some what normal. I don't have to worry about going to the hospital once a month. I see this as a victory. I'm gonna enjoy today but tomorrows a new day with new challenges and I'm gonna work. I will NEVER be the kind of person to just lay down and die (literally or metaphorically). Weather it's a fight with cancer or a fight for something I want, I'm gonna work for it with diligence and I'm gonna put God first. So in a nutshell, that is how I'm feeling.

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

1 more month? Ok

Well it's coming down to the wire. One more treatment then I get the majority of my life back. I won't be done with chemo... Not by a long shot but I'll be done with these monthly hospital stays and that's a good thing. It's funny because at the beginning I just wanted it to end but now I see that all the things I've gone through have made me more of me. I don't know if that makes too much sense but it's true. I'm glad to be me cancer or no cancer, I wouldn't have it any other way. I can hardly explain the changes that God has put me through these past eight months. I feel like I was shocked with electricity or I feel like I've died and come back to life and let me tell you it's best feeling in the world. I feel better now then I've felt in 18 years and that's a fact. So yes, I still
have one more month but I wouldn't trade it for the world because no matter what happens this month and how bad I feel, I know that God is gonna use it to make me more of me. Once again I don't even know of that makes sense to most of you but it makes sense to me and I'm glad..