I just dont know

I just don't know. I don't know what's happening tomorrow, or the next day, or the next day. I don't know if I'm going to get into my dream college or work at my dream job. I don't even know what my dream job is. I don't know if tomorrows guaranteed. No one does. You don't know were your be tomorrow either. You don't know when you'll get that next piece of news that will forever change your life. I didn't and I still don't. What I do know? I'm here today and I'm in remission. Praise God. I just don't know. But I WILL enjoy today and every other day God gives me for the rest of my life.

One step closer

One step closer to surviving. Just finished round three of chemo and I feel good for the most part. That's three down and 5 more to go and I would do a hundred more if that's what it would take to beat this. I thank God everyday for another day of life because no matter what plans you make, God is always the one to execute them.

Half the Battle

I hear half that half the battle is in your mind. This means I'm already half way healed. With the right mind set and God of course, the treatment is not that hard. I don't look at my life as if, I look at it as when?. All the treatment I go through is just something I have to do to get healed. Everything thats happened in my life is part of Gods purpose and I wouldnt have it any other way.

Chemo Round 2

That wasn't do bad, wow, I can't believe I'm writing this haha. God is good, I must say. I just went through six bags of chemo and my blood count is better then before I was ever diagnosed. I feel great. Haven't missed a meal. I'm going home tomorrow. I feel normal, I don't feel sick. I know God is healing me. Not only is he healing me but he is also taking away the side affects from the medicine. God is good, cant wait to see what my future holds.

UTEP

I got my acceptance letter for UTEP today. It's kind of sad. I guess I hadn't thought about it too much but all my senior friends are moving on next year. I sorta wanna move on to but if I did I would miss out on my senior year and I am NOT going to let cancer take anything from me. I'm giving cancer 8 months, that's it. I refuse to give it my senior year. I refuse to give it anything else. Everything happens for a reason. This is all part of Gods plan for my life.

Life Experience

I hate cancer. I hate that I have it. I hate what it does to individuals and their families. I hate everything about it. One thing I do appreciate however is the experience that comes from this horrible illness. I appreciate the changes that are taking place inside me. I appreciate the strength I'm developing from this. After this I'm gonna be able to do anything. I'm going to the top, this is a fact. It's sorta nice not having to worry about small stuff anymore. I'm sorry to say that it took cancer to accomplish this. But no matter what it took to make me what I am and what I'm going to be I'm glad. Because of cancer, I now enjoy life more then I ever have. There's no more time for regrets or grudges or anything that would a person back. Now all I have to do is live my life and enjoy it.

Drastic Changes

I feel like my life is about to change all the time. I feel like soon enough I'm gonna have to make fantastic changes in my life. Then I take a step back and look at my life. I've already have made drastic changes and you know what? They're not that bad. I spent 11 days in the hospital, drastic! I dropped out of school, drastic! I can't leave my house, drastic! They're not that bad. I truly feel God is blessing me because despite these drastic changes, my life feels pretty normal...