Wednesday, February 29, 2012
I can't stop thinking about prom last year. I don't know why. It's making me real sad. I don't know why. I keep on thinking what a good day it was. I felt like I had life by the tail. Three sport athlete ending his jr. Year enjoying life and ready for senior year of highschool. I keep thinking how this was supposed to be the best year of my life. It clearly is not the best year of my life but it is by far the most important. This is the year I realized how much I love life. This is the year I realized how much God can do. This year I learned patience. I don't know why God chose now to show me these things and I might never know but it's all part of his perfect plan.
Sunday, February 26, 2012
Just finished my fourth round of chemo. This means I am now halfway done. So far so good. I had minimal side affects this round and God is truly blessing me. Right now everything has gone right but it's not how you start the race it's how you finish the race and I need God to help me finish this race strong.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Sometimes I feel just too calm. Too calm to be getting chemotherapy. Too calm to be in the hospital. Too calm to be fighting cancer. This phase in my life feels like the calm before a storm but the crazy thing is, I'm in the storm. This storm with a forecast so bleak and depressing yet while I'm in it, it feels like it hasn't even started yet. This is God, no doubt. Only God could carry me through the storm and make things so calm that I hardly even realize that I'm in it.