Sometimes I feel just too calm. Too calm to be getting chemotherapy. Too calm to be in the hospital. Too calm to be fighting cancer. This phase in my life feels like the calm before a storm but the crazy thing is, I'm in the storm. This storm with a forecast so bleak and depressing yet while I'm in it, it feels like it hasn't even started yet. This is God, no doubt. Only God could carry me through the storm and make things so calm that I hardly even realize that I'm in it.