Wednesday, August 15, 2012

I just don't get it

I don't get it. I don't know why. This is hard, real hard. Some days I feel on top of the world while some days I feel like I do now. It's not that I feel bad and it's not that I'm weak, that couldn't be further from the truth. It certainly isn't that I don't have faith in God because believe me, I do. I just feel like I don't get it. Does that make sense? I know everyone must feel like that at some point in their life. I started school today. It's great to be back! But I just don't get it. Why do I have to repeat my senior year? Why couldn't I have graduated with my class. I don't feel bad about coming back but I just don't get it. Why God? I know this is all part of your plan but sometimes I question you. I'm sorry for this. If its part of your will please help me understand because I just don't get it.

1 comment:

  1. Bobby -
    I send you a tight, passionate bear hug to assure you that you are not crazy--just heartbroken. Lean into your pain. My prayer is that you continue to trust God through your tears.

    When my daughter died three years ago, I could not express my confusion on my own. I hope I am not crossing the line by sending you a link to some of the resources that helped me during my darkness.

    My thoughts and prayers are with you regularly.

    In His Grip,
    - Paulette Rodriguez, a.k.a., Lauren's mom